Game?

I ask myself, if there is anyway knowing the right direction in which to go in life.

Some people want social status or money. Some want a stable life and others want to travel all the time. Some people like to interact with others and others don’t.

I don’t understand how I should continue. I want to stay near my family and I also want to have a good job, but what I most want is to do something I enjoy, have great friends and the best girlfriend I could possible imagine.

But I don’t know what I really want. What that job would be or where to find those friends and what I want in a girlfriend, I just think I want those things.

I usually prefer to let things come to me and just go along, but now I kind of want to take some things into my own hands and just play a game with this whole search.

For Example: If I want a girlfriend, I want to be able to find certain clues for were this girlfriend might be, but how can I find those clues.

In General i want my life to be a game. Like a role playing game. I want to gather experience and level up and find new gear along the way which helps me have a better character, but what happens after I’m all maxed out? I think that’s the period we’re the real adventures will start and we’re I just lay back and enjoy.

I’m very restricted by a deep feeling inside of me, it’s like a handicap, but some people have handicape all their life and they manage some how.

Like I said the biggest problem is that I don’t know what I want and where i stand. So even if I would level up I wouldn’t know which level I’m in and how much progress I’m making. It would be a constant blind walk were I just get what I can, not always knowing if it’s good or bad for me.

I wish I could have more control over that.

It’s difficult, but I just have to find some way to figure all of this out.

Thanks for reading who ever read this, you’re mental man, go and have fun instead of reading this crap.

Have a good day and until next time.